its quite sad when things ended up this way ... =)
Zombie@6/12/2010 10:07:00 AM
Saturday, May 22, 2010'♥
have had such hectic & chaotic time with school n work finally a weekend to myself after consecutive weeks n months of burnt weekend done with 6 modules, 2 more to go. school's starting in 4days time final round and done with my dip!
time really flies. 1 more week to go n half a year will be gone. much had happened in this past 1/2 year. sad to say, all the bad n negative stuffs. 've seen n learn many more lessons in life. but i guess its not rly that bad after all when all these shits forces and made me grow further yet im still surviving, strong enough on my own. =)
i've learnt to be even stronger then ever. n i'll never let myself fall. accept the fact that this world is way too practical n cruel reality is a harsh fact u gotta come face to face with life is full of betrayals and ppl taking one another for granted is sucha norm
define friends. i dont think i need jerks. i deserve better then that. define entertainers. oh. many in my life. n i swear they rly played their roles (as entertainers) duper well. yay. absolutely. ruthless is human's best friend. n thats - just purely being myself.
though i've lost alot along the way. it doesnt matter and nothing even matters now. i'll strive for what i want for my future sake. pick myself up fast, fight back the tears and tormenting struggles whatever it takes, bring it on.
the one and only contentment after all these years, is to have met YOU thank you for bringing me joy and happiness thank you for bringing me back to life thank you for loving me thank you for accepting me for who i am you really make a big difference. thank you for coming into my life you matters and you r all that i need i love you. (n im missing you so badly) :(
Zombie@5/22/2010 11:33:00 PM
Friday, May 07, 2010'♥
Picture the future no matter what it takes how tough its gonna be i must.. and I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need lotsa oil pls zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz -.- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Zombie@5/07/2010 12:01:00 AM
Monday, May 03, 2010'♥
even when harsh reality forces me out of this comfort zone im so used to having i know, im not at all prepared for all these still a child at heart the fear is overwhelming
its time to grow up its time to be an adult i wish i could really do so but who could understand the level of stress im facing
breaking apart inside myself, struggling so terribly hard who can i turn to n lean upon on where can i hide my fears and tell my frustrations to its beyond what words could tell
i feel all so tied up, being trapped in a world thats so unknown. where am i? who am i? what am i becoming of?
this feels worst then a fucking disabled. let me break free from all these, please.
Zombie@5/03/2010 01:41:00 AM
Sunday, April 11, 2010'♥
Thinking back on our past It brought back hell loads of happy memories Looking through all these shits now Do u feel the pain like how i do?
With all these hurting truth. Things will never be the same again.
Zombie@4/11/2010 12:46:00 PM
Tuesday, March 30, 2010'♥
2 days MC.
Been lazing around for the whole day. Im suppose to pack for K.L But...damn lazy... So... laters. Hahas.
I feel really contented to have just you by my side. =)
Zombie@3/30/2010 04:00:00 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2010'♥
Done and over with expo sales. Exhausted and muscles aching all over. Feeling sick already. =( I hope not.
Its official off for tomorrow BUT i still gotta be back in office WHAT THE FUCK! Im really speechless. Seriously. I feel damn depressed with all these shits.
Whatever.
Zombie@3/28/2010 09:31:00 PM
Monday, March 22, 2010'♥
Hectic week ahead.. Battery going flat.. =(
Been thinking alot lately This is so even tiring... Mental tireness is so much worst then being tired physically.
Im getting very emo. N i hate feeling this way.
Zombie@3/22/2010 10:10:00 PM
Monday, March 01, 2010'♥
Really damn sian. I wanna go home NOW and chill out with alcohols. FML!
Zombie@3/01/2010 05:24:00 PM
Sunday, February 28, 2010'♥
Y did i allow myself to get so super distracted during that week? Sigh... Whatever it is, i've only got myself to blame for this. I felt guilty for throwing tantrums when being questioned Coz i know, i didnt put in my best at all. But i just couldnt help but to defend myself using that sorta ways coz im already feeling so lousy. =((
I know i needa work on my self discipline again very much. Im losing even more motivations these days. Just wanna give up on everything so much n nua like theres no tmr. Which, is so impossible i know. This internal battle n struggles are really really wearing me out.
Mother and friends are so dissapointed in me. Im even more dissapointed in myself. Why like that. Sigh. =(
No more 'sweet' weekends this term.
im missing hub's so much m going nuts!!! ok..maybe i shld start mugging on econs first. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Zombie@2/28/2010 12:22:00 PM
Friday, February 19, 2010'♥
10 years..
N now, you feel so much like a stranger to me I no longer know you
Do you feel what im feeling I wonder
The pain battling deep within Is crashing everything up
Zombie@2/19/2010 01:00:00 PM
Tuesday, February 16, 2010'♥
How should i describe this? Disappointment? Not exactly.
When the world is filled of nothing but ugly truth You know clearly deep down Theres no one else to trust but yourself.
Zombie@2/16/2010 12:24:00 PM
Saturday, February 13, 2010'♥
I dont have any CNY mood I think CNY is so super lame
My papers are goners Prepared for the sub papers
Ive got so much to do But im so super duper lazy
They are coming over tonight for drinking session YEAYYYYYYYYYY!!!
Zombie@2/13/2010 01:03:00 PM
Friday, January 29, 2010'♥
I think i had done something terribly wrong. Fuck It.
Im really back to my old self. But why do i feel so fucked. Coz at this age, i know its wrong to do all these? I dono. Slap me! I deserve it.